I DESPISE UNCERTAINTY. I DESPISE UNCERTAINTY. I DESPISE UNCERTAINTY.
I am going through uncertainty HELL right now. Flaming inferno of uncertainty. One of probably the greatest friends in the history of friendship, Meg, sent me this quote the other day because she knows the struggle I'm dealing with. It said....
"Trust the wait. Embrace the uncertainty. When nothing is certain, anything is possible."
She sent this to me because
A.) I'm impatient as shit
B.) Trusting is not my strong suit
C.) I DESPISE UNCERTAINTY (not sure if I mentioned that yet)
D.) To show me that if I do trust, wait, and embrace this uncertainty BS all my wildest dreams could come true
This reminds me of so many ladies dealing with infertility. Infertility is uncertain. There might not be anything more uncertain. The only thing that you can count on when dealing with infertility is spending a shit ton of money (unless you live in Massachusetts or have amazing insurance) and being at your doctor's office A LOT. You're welcome.
I had a patient a while ago who asked if she didn't move after her transfer, didn't go back to work for 2 weeks, took her medication at the same time every day, would she get pregnant? She was scared to death of it not working. She was obviously reaching for some kind of hope from me. Unfortunately, I gave her the best answer I could... Taking it easy is great, taking your medication at the same time every day is great, but nothing is guaranteed. She's a smart cookie. She knew I didn't know the answer, but she still wanted me to give her some kind of reassurance.
I think it's normal to want some reassurance when you aren't able to control a situation that is really close to your heart. You want someone to tell you it's going to be okay even if they have no freaking clue if that's the truth. So while you may be in this period of uncertainty of when your positive beta will come, and I'm over here uncertain about where the heck my life is going let's trust the wait, embrace the uncertainty, and know that everything will work out with time.