Funny Girls of Fertility

Pursuing Happiness


 I mean who didn’t love the movie, “The Pursuit of Happiness”?!?!  I know I cried like a little baby in it!  I’m also a huge fan of Will Smith, probably goes back to the days of Fresh Prince of Bel-Air and Getting’ Jiggy wit It.  If you don’t know what I’m talking about, we probably can’t be friends.  How do I always digress so much, so quickly?! Anywho….

 If you haven’t seen “The Pursuit of Happiness”, quick synopsis.  Will Smith and his kid get kicked out of their apartment because they’re broke, he takes a job as an intern at a brokerage with no pay, they have to live in a shelter, until he finally makes it.  Oops spoiler alert.  The point is that even though they went through some terrible times, and he was chasing happiness (which he thought was money) he finally realized his happiness was having his family.

 I think sometimes you don’t realize what you have right in front of you, we’re always chasing something, right? It’s taken me a lot of difficult life events, and a lot of growth to realize what happiness really is.  I know people see my Instagram stories and think, “this woman is crazy.”  You’re probably right.  I’m no longer in the pursuit of happiness because I found it.  I found it in some of my darkest days. I stopped worrying about what other people thought of me, and truly embraced who I am as a person.  I’m for sure not everyone’s cup of tea, I’m a lot for myself some days.  When I wake up I feel so much happiness in my heart because I appreciate the little things.

I appreciate the fact I wake up, the sun, crazy clouds, the trees (I live in a city called The Woodlands, and it’s true to its name), the freedom I have to be who I want to be, the education I’ve been able to get, the opportunities that continue to come my way, the friendships I’ve made along the way.  I get into deep thoughts about “YOLO” (you only live once, for you really old people who read this).  I realized that this is my chance to soak up every beautiful/terrible/exciting/adventurous thing life throws my way.

 I think everyone thinks, “Once I have _______, I’ll finally be happy.”  Guess what, it ain’t true. You’ll be happy when you accept your life for what it is in this moment.

 I could think that way right now, “I’ll be happy once I’m done with this semester of grad school.” It’s nuts, and a ton of work, it drives me insane, I feel like I’m drowning most days (obviously my relationship woos weren’t helping with this either).  I could be in a terrible mood, and cry myself to sleep every night thinking I’ll never get caught up (thanks to my Super Bowl adventures) or I can put on my big girl panties and think, “How freaking cool is it that I’m pursuing my THIRD college degree?  How amazing is it that I am fortunate enough to be drowning in an amazing educational opportunity?”  The beauty of this is that I control my thoughts, I control how I see my situation.

 You get to decide if you want to be happy, no one gets to choose that for you.  The pursuit of happiness lies within your own thought process.

 I get told frequently that I exude joy.  I feel it, and I want others to feel it too.  When you see my happy face on social media it’s because I am TRULY that happy.  I haven’t always been this way.  If you knew me through 2016 – early 2017 I was in the darkest hole of my life.. pretty much at the center of the earth, with the earthworms, being a miserable troll.  It wasn’t until I changed my thinking that I felt so incredibly happy, and realized I was in charge of my fate.

Being in school has definitely taught me to find the little joys in everyday life. The patients and other nurses I work with have helped me find my happiness in what I plan on doing in the future.

Getting to wear scrubs every day is such a dream, I mean who couldn’t be happy in these super cute scrubs?!  For those interested, these are Smitten Scrubs Bliss Collection (color: Jazz Berry, pretty sure you can’t pick a better color for spring).  I’m a petite person, and these are true to size (I’m an XS – 5’6 about 115lbs).  They don’t make me look like a blob, and are still comfy, stretchy, and the material is so soft on my skin! I’m always on the go, and these scrubs allow me to run around like the energetic person I am! For people who love pockets, or if you like your scrub tops tucked in, these scrubs have it all!  They’re legit, y’all!

 I hope whatever situation you are facing today you try to spin it in some delusional positive way, it’s not always easy, but life is so much better when you put on those rosy, unicorn glasses.